Sticks/Rocks in my purse...

Ahhh yes... Am I the only mother of a little boy, who has found themselves with sticks in their purse? When you are up to your elbows in raising a boy things are... How shall we put this?... Chaotic...(That is not a strong enough word) and if ur body is not running wide open trying to contain him, your mind is racing at full throttle attempting to contemplate his "next move", in order to minimize the amount of destruction that lies ahead. Yes this is the thing we call life and to be be absolutely transparent with you.. Can I confide that I have at times (ok, most of the time for goodness sakes) been in a place of utter confusion and overwhelmation? (That was a Marleneism). Now this is all internal, mind you, just so as we understand each other. Most of the time I can appear to be cool as a cucumber externally. It is inside that is a mess. Of course, it would be so much easier just to spank our kids into submission but I have to be the one who can sleep at night, so judge me if you want, but I have chosen not to hit another human being. In so doing I have also chosen the consequences. Anyway, where were we, oh yeah, sticks in my purse... Now, after I have, in great detail, told you my life story in the aforementioned (well now that is a big word isn't it? not sure if I used it correctly but u get my drift) text let me simply say, why should I be surprised to look in my purse and find sticks? It seemed so bizarre to see that, but it is perfectly the norm for me and my son... To appease him, I often put sticks, rocks, grass, weeds, bugs, butterfly carcuses in my purse when we are away from the house and he sees something in nature and wants to keep it. Afterall he doesn't carry a purse. Makes perfect sense to me.. This is who I am. These are the tales of my life. Thank you God.
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New Moon premiere

Loved it. Going to bed now. It's 4:40. Good night!
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New Moon Premiere... Right now! As we speak...

Yeah baby! Waited a year for this... Won't blog much during movie cause I need to concentrate!!!
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New Moon...

10 mins to go for New Moon premiere.
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New Moon...

Only 45 minutes until New Moon premiere... Theater is packed!.. It is about 11:15 pm Thursday, November 19.
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Twilight... Rolling credits...

The end of one chapter in a once in a lifetime event. Sad in a way... Loved twilight so much... Can New Moon really stack up? I mean really?...
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Twilight...

At the prom... Gazeebo!.. Have I found u Flightless bird!... Is it not enough just to have a long and happy life with me?..
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Twilight...

Bella in hospital
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Twilight... Remember who you are...

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Twilight baseball game...

Twilight baseball game... Love it... Mad's favorite part!!
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My Favorite part just passed...

My favorite part... when Edward and Bella drive to school together for the first time in his Volvo. Good music, Edward in cool shades, everone starring at them...
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Twilight in progress

We are in the theatre. Edward is showing Bella his room...
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Twilight and New Moon on the big screen all in one night!!!!!

Yes, you read that right, how great is that? We are so excited. In 2.5 hours me and my Mad will be sitting in a movie theatre watching... are you ready for this... dunt dunt da da... Drum roll please... TWILIGHT at 9pm!!! Oh yeah baby! But that's not all baby! As soon as Twilight is over we will see... Are you sitting down?... Dunt dunt da da.... NEW MOON... I thank God for blessings that are so fun!!! Age 46 and 12... Its so great!!!
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Countdown to New Moon Premiere

At Cracker Barrel enjoying the $25 gift certificate that Mad gave me for my birthday. Just ordered and waiting for our food. Since this is a great event and we have waited a year for this movie we decided to go all out and ordered sirloin steaks. She chose 2 baked potatoes with hers and well done and tea. I chose medium steak, dumplins, beans, mac and cheese and tea. This is a special night.
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I don't want to get rabies...

My wheelchair hates carpet and loves 2 eat it and pull it away from it's carpet nails. The threshold into 2 my room is particularly sharp when u step on it. My 12 year just got jabbed with the spikes and was hobbling around saying ough and then she said "I hope those nails weren't rusty, I don't want 2 get rabies." ;)
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I will never B

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-----Original Message-----
From: "Marlene" <amjmom1@yahoo.com>
Date: Tue, 3 Nov 2009 00:38:04
To: Mommy mominator 1078369<amjmom1@yahoo.com>
Subject: I will never B

I will never B...

My sweet precious children,

I will never b the Mom in the high heel shoes.

I will never b the Mom that rides u piggy back,

I will never b the Mom who runs down the beach with u,

But...
I am the Mom who races my wheelchair with u,

I am the Mom who rides u on my lap,

I am the Christian Mom,

I am the Mom who will love u no matter what, no judgement,

I am the Mom who is always there 4 u,

I am the Mom who gives u the benefit of the doubt,

I am the Mom who tries new things and wants u 2 try new things,

I am the Mom who believes in u,

I am the Mom who keeps her word,

I am the happy Mom,

I am the Mom who can't wait to pick u up and carry u inside the pearly gates,

I am the Mom who gave u the best of her,

I am the Mom who knows you can do it,

I am the Mom who is highly sensitive to human suffering,

I am the Mom who wants 2 stop abortion,

I am the grateful Mom,

I am the calm Mom,

I am the understanding Mom,

I am the sympathetic Mom,

I am Mom.

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Don't you think I should be with my Mama?

My 8 year old is trying 2 decide whether to go Trick/Treat with our neighbor or to go with Daddy and me (our oldest is 19 and our 12 year is out of town for the weekend). We wanted the neighbor to go with us but they have invited Jesse to go with them. So... J needs to make a decision. He said "Don't you think I should go with my Mama in case I get injured or hurt or break my arm or leg?"
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•Taco Nacho Chip, my chihuahua

How did my little chihuahua get his name?  I am so glad you asked.  We let Jesse name the dog on the day of the seizure and call it a mommy's intuition but I had felt for Jesse for 3 days prior to the seizure.  (I will explain the intuition in another post.)  Anyway, I asked my husband Carlton is Jesse could please name the dog because I had a burden for him for some reason.  So Jesse said Chip.  Of course, Carlton and Maddie threw there own ideas out there and Carlton said to Jesse, what about Taco?  Jess liked it but later changed it to Nacho but the family was stubborn and said no we like Taco.  So.... I named him Taco Nacho Chip!  Works for me!

•My Poor Chihuahua hurt his eye!

My little 5 month+- old chihuahua named Taco Nacho Chip had a bad accident on the night of June 2 after Maddie's 6th Grade Graduation.  We had to take him to the Emergency Vet in a nearby town at midnight.  He stuck his head in a wire garden trellis and the metal hook got caught on his lower eye lid and he screamed and ran room to room, he was so scared.  He went through 3-4 doorways banging his eye on each one.  Carlton finally caught him in the kitchen and unhooked him.  He had blood on his outer eye lid.  The vet gave pain meds and antibiotics and a cone for him to wear.  Cost $192.00.  We got to bed at 3:30 am.

•Snaggle Sticks

My son has always been referred to as Sticks, as in Bones, as in Skinny.  Now that he has lost both #2 teeth on the left and the right, we refer to him as Snaggle Sticks.

•Pray for these: Cara, Mady, Hannah, Leah, Joel, Alexis, Aaden, Colin, Jon, & Kate Gosselin

•You might be a redneck if you have your nails and hair done at Walmart.

•You might be a redneck if your favorite vacation spot in the world is Pigeon Forge, Tennessee.

•Braces, help! orthodontist wants me to come in with my daughter today. That only means one thing, he wants more money!

In about 25 minutes I will be going with my adult daughter, 18 to her orthodontist.  Mind you we have already paid this man many, dollars cash at the first appointment.  Then, because her teeth shifted she had to have braces on again.  Now, he is wanting to see me again.  Has anyone else had this problem.  We have given him well over $10,000.  Help!

•Dolly.... is she a chihuahua or a Jack Russell? We bought her at a flea market near Pigeon Forge, Tennessee.

In the photos, she is the bigger dog.  We bought her at a flea market near Pigeon Forge, Tennessee.  We named her Dolly for Dolly Parton and Dollywood, which we love.  She was actually at the red light near the flea market.  The man told us she was a chihuahua.  He told us she was a toy chihuahua.  We were ignorant and let our hearts make the decision.  We love her dearly, she is very sweet but we don't think she is purebread chihuahua.  We think she may have jack russell in her.  It is too late to take her back, that is 10 hours from here and besides we wouldn't give her up for anything.  We just recently got her house trained.  In the photos, she is the bigger dog.  We bought her brother, Taco Nacho about 2 months ago at a flea market in St. Augustine, Florida.

•Add color to Facebook? How to.... Page Rage, add it to your profile

Yes, it can be done.  I am a very creative person so I set out to find a way to add color to my facebook profile.  It is called Page Rage and you can get it after you have your own Facebook page.  All you do is search for Page Rage and it will come up and you just follow the instructions.  I love it, I found a layout that I love.  Only problem:  Your friends have to have Page Rage too or they can't see your Page Rage.  This is the only time I have ever invited my entire list of friends to try something new.  Can't wait to see others layouts.

•What is Facebook? Why is Facebook so great? It looks so boring and dull compared to MySpace.

I have to agree that it does look dull and boring compared to Myspace.  There are no fancy layouts, no color.  No music (I am looking into that.)  I was skeptical too so I did my homework and in a google search I asked what was so great about facebook.  I have tried it at the recommendation of my cousin.  It is just the basics, nothing fancy.  Maybe that is why people love it so much, it is simple.  I have been on about 1 month now and have 30+ friends so far.  Probably my biggest accomplishments so far have been I reconnected with a friend from 8th Grade and also a few friends from high school.  I have joined up with girlfriends that I was acquainted with here in my town and we all keep up with each others lives this way.  For instance, a friend may post on their wall, something like this, "I hate Mondays, where's the coffee?", or they may say, "going to bed early, I'm tired."  Some of us respond with encouragement if we can.  It is a place to share things about yourself that you wouldn't just walk up to an acquaintance and say.  For instance, I may post on my wall what I am thinking and it may be, "I am feeling blue today."  It is posted on others profiles as well if they are friends with you.  So far, I like it and I have figured out a way to put color on my profile.  See next post.

•What is Blogher?

Unknown at this moment, I am researching it though.  I have it in my dock to remind me to read up on it.

•What is blogging?

Well, I have asked that question myself.  Blogging means different things to different people.  I can only speak for myself when I say that blogging is like therapy for me.  Most therapists will tell you (not that I have ever been to a therapist or maybe I have) that it is very beneficial to write down your feelings and thoughts.  So there you go, that is what blogging means to me.

•Abortionist shot and killed? Dr. George Tiller, Wichita, Kansas

Wow!  I am so pro life I would stake my own life on it.   However, this is wrong.  I really can see the point of view from the criminal.  They are in such desperation that babies are being murdered that the only way they see to stop it is to take the life of the one doing the killing.  This doctor had already been shot in both arms and at another time his clinic had been bombed.  So I am trying to put myself in the mind of the abortionist.  Was he thinking to himself, well, these people are really bothered that I am killing babies, maybe there is something to that.  How can anyone love God and think that abortion is ok?  Abortion and child abuse in general is what my heart grieves about more than anything.  Short of violence, we all should be this passionate about abortion.  Wake up people.  Talk about your beliefs so that it may help others.

•Another day in paradise...

Yes, I do live in the best country on Earth.  Yes, I do live in the best county in Florida.  Yes, I do live live in the best town in the world.  Yes, I do live on the best street in my town.  However, things are not always perfect here in Mayberry, RFD.  We have the usual lover's quarrel, the usual monetary problems, the usual offspring chaos.  I suppose if we did not live in the best place on Earth our problems would be different.  Our problems could be no freedom of speech, no freedom of religion, or perhaps facing the death of our child or ourself in a country that had zero healthcare, zero food, zero water.  Thank you Jesus for the life you have given me.

•Last day of school for children

Wow, what happened to 6th grade and 1st grade? It went by so quickly. I am so proud of my kids. Jesse was a finalist in the spelling bee and came in 5 out of 12. He and his classmate both got out on the word June. The little girl got out first and then Jess. Mrs. Snowden said it was a trick word because the

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•Jon and Kate plus eight - Looking forward to tomorrow night's episode - Kate's brother and sister in law, Jodi are speaking out, Is that right?

I hope Jon and Kate can pull this whole thing together for the children.  It will be so painful for them.  I pray that God can heal their differences and wounds.  I am watching not to judge but to support.

•We went to see Monsters versus Aliens. Review... Reese Witherspoon good job.

Cool animation.  Good story.  Seven year old loved it. Twelve year old loved it.  I loved it at 45.  My seven year old who had his tonsils out last Thanksgiving, was very into it, I could hear him breathing because he was whistling.  It was a nice movie.  Took our mind off other things. 

•News from 1st Grade... I learned a lot at Wendy's

Well the field trip was a learning experience for me.  This is the only field trip I have ever gone on with Jesse.  I observed how he interacted with the other kids.  With the boys... he is just one of them.  They chose where they wanted to sit in Wendy's and he sat at the only table with all boys.  One of the other parents told me I had the worst table having to handle all those boys, 4 to be exact.  The all got along well and loved to laugh and cut up.  They were all rowdy but Jesse chose to sit on my lap after he ate so he never got too rowdy.  I am proud of my son!  Jesse asked me if I could walk with them back to the school and I checked my battery power and told him I would.  One the walk back to school, Jesse was surrounded by girls!  They were tickling him, laughing with him, giving him funny looks, they just loved him!  I wonder how long this has been going on.  Maybe it was this way in kindergarten as well.  I pray I will be able to come into the school more during 2nd grade so I can get to know the kids.  I wasn't able to do that with Aud, or Mad, so I always felt I missed out on so much.  I wasn't able to come in with Aud because I used a cane and it was near impossible, but I did go in to some of the parties.  With Mad I wasn't able to come in because I had a 1 year old to chase and he wasn't allowed on field trips and such.  I went with Maddie's class to 02B Kids in gainesville and I drove Jesse all the way to Green Cove to have Aunt Dee watch him for me, then all the way to Gainesville, then back to Green Cove to pick up Jess.  You can see how this would be near impossible to do on a regular basis.

•To Wendys, CVS, Field Trip, It was a big day for me!

Ok, everyone, I need you to pray for me this morning. When you are blessed with a disability as I am (Muscular Dystrophy), it takes you way out of your comfort zone (falling in public, can't get up, have to ask people to pump your gas, asking for help when it isn't in your DNA makeup, (I love my independence!) and the list goes on.) I have to shorten this post or continue on another post...........

 .... Cont. Long story short.. I am no longer strong enough to load my wheelchair to go anywhere (but I can still drive, thank you Jesus). I have missed all of Jesse's Kindergarten year and now his 1st grade year as well. His class is taking a field trip today to Wendy's and I am gonna try to meet them there by driving my wheelchair. I need your prayers! It is not supposed to rain until 3:30 or so. Later....

 ...made it back safely. No problems, thank you Jesus. It was nice to meet some of Jesse's friends. They had a good time. I ran in CVS for a minute and that was the first time I had been inside our CVS or our Wendy's. My circle of life is generally pretty small, I go to church, school for pick up and drop off, and Walmart, Starke for groceries. Thanks for your prayers, love ya!

•Payless - Outstanding Shoes...

I have to share pics of these shoes Maddie tried on at Payless. There are no words to describe them. She could barely walk in these, she had to hang onto the racks.

•Our Mall: J C Penney's & Payless

Monday, Memorial Day, May 25, 2009 

Heading to mall to look for 6th grade graduation dress. Looking for a bargain, I never pay full price, it has to be on sale. I am so excited to be going somewhere besides school and church. You can tell I don't get out much. Thank a vet or their family today!

We found a dress for 6th grade graduation at Penneys. Nothing spectactular, more of a church dress. She liked it, that is all that matters. BTW, shopping with a 12 year old girl and a budget sometimes doesn't fit together well. I can tell you this much, it wasn't all nicey, nicey, however we did make it home in one piece. The shoes we got at Payless outside Penneys. Maddie is a blessing to me.

•Pray for our Country....

 #1. Pray for our Country.

#2. Use any opportunity you can to stand up for our Saviour. If we don't stand up for Him, who will? It is our turn and our time in history to talk about our beliefs. We are not gonna live forever, only what we do for Jesus counts. Think about it, who remembers or knows anything about our Great, Great, Great Grandmother? Only what she did for Christ matters. In a few generations we will also be forgotten about but the work we did for Jesus will live on.

•I have my own quote. I am so excited. "As hard as I try not to look stupid, it never seems to work out."

Yes, I finally, after 45 years have come up with my own unique quote.  You can use it if you want, just leave me a comment telling me about it.

"As hard as I try not to look stupid, it never seems to work out."

•Sad to watch. Jon and Kate or John and Kate problems aired for all to watch

We tuned in last night to see the 5th season premier of Jon and Kate plus eight.  I was so saddened.  Not only for the kids, but for Jon and Kate.  The parents are hurting in different ways from the children, but hurting, nonetheless.  I have seen this hurt in my marriage but it has never come to this point or been aired on television.  I feel for them, for they have lost their way.  It is gonna take God to put this all back together, but it is doable, for all things work together for good for those who love the Lord.  It was hard to watch because you could feel their pain.  I would never, ever judge them.  I am sure they both regret things that they have said or done.  Been there, done that.  Let's pray for them, for there is power in prayer.  Let's not judge, just love them.  I know that the only one who brings me peace will bring them peace as well.

•To be totally honest with people. Inside and out. That is one of my biggest goals.

The truth shall set you free.  I always have kept myself guarded, never totally being myself.  Always worrying about what people thought of me.  I always thought that I wasn't good enough, felt as though others thought I was bad.  Sounds crazy, I know, but I believe it is more common than we think.  It still haunts me today.  It has kept me locked up within myself.  I never hd many friends and those I did have didn't stand a chance, as soon as they failed me in some way, I dropped them like a hot potato.  I like think I like myself, I love spending time alone, just me.  But ... in some ways I hate myself.  At another time I will post about things from when I was a little girl, stay tuned for that.  What I am trying to say is those who were supposed to nurture me and teach me to love myself were incapable of doing so.  For a long time, I felt as if I were a broken vessel and there was no use for me.  (I heard that a lot growing up as a little girl)  But because of Jesus I now know that not to be true.  He would have died for me even if I was the only one on earth.  That is all that I need.  I want to be able to talk to people and not have to be behind a person that I think everyone will like.  I am working on it.  Help me Lord, be all that you have created me to be, nothing more, nothing less.  I know I am good enough.

•Our trip to Silver Springs, FL, Glass Bottom Boats

Yes, I had heard about it all my life but had never been.  I went with my daughter for a field trip.  It was phenomenal.  It wasn't disney world.  But for me at 45, it was better.  If you want to see what the real florida is all about, visit Silver Springs.  Not much has changed there.  One kind gentleman told me that the 5 glass bottom boats that they are using today are the same ones they used in the 60's.  I couldn't get on the boat because of my wheelchair but my daughter did and it is a ride she will never forget.  I looked at the springs from a fenced area and they were beautiful, very clear and you could see fish and big turtles.  While I was waiting on my daughter to come back from her 30 minute excursion on the boat, I just breathed in the beauty that surrounded me.  It was an overcast day so that was even better, I wouldn't melt in the heat and it was just more enjoyable.  Another reason I wanted to go was to see the Cougars and Florida Panthers.  I could watch them for hours.  Some cages were empty but we did spot one blondish panther over in the corner of the pen.  Of course I had to talk to the big kitty.  She had dug out a spot on the cool dirt and was watching us.  Actually she had a death stare on me and it freaked me out because I knew she could rip me to shreds.  It could have been the wheelchair that interested her, the sound of the motor or something.  I will post more later about our trip and some photos.  Advice:  Go to Silver Springs if you can, it's simple and very sweet!

•For the Record.... Easter Dress for my 12 year old

We were looking for a costume for her to wear in her odyssey play.  We went to goodwill (needed to look like a school teacher.)  We came across a lovely "Worthington" skirt and I said Maddie you have good taste it is a Worthington from JC Penneys.  We did not use it for the costume after all but I said if we don't find an Easter dress that we like better we can wear this. Well about twoweeks later I got a cute, peach/coral, matching shirt and I told Maddie last night and it was the end of the world.  I had offended her immensely.  Lots of drama and she told me how wrong wearing that would be in so many ways.  I said you can't beat it, good brand, quality, color, price and most importantly a great fit. Now that is hard to find all these.  I will update on how it went after Easter.

•What I find intoxicating...

The smell of fresh cut grass.

The feel of a cool breeze blowing.

The sound of birds singing.

The first spoonful of ice cream, after the first taste the rest is just redundant.

The smell of the ocean.

The sound of waves roaring.

Starring at the ocean.

God' wonderful little unique gifts; seashells. (Do u c a pattern forming here? Yes! I love the ocean!) 

•Hearing loss?

I'm only 45. Is it normal 2 find urself restarting ur car bcause u can't hear it running? It can be downright embarrassing. It makes a grand noise when u do that, announcing 2 the world that ur an idiot. 

•The plants are loving the rain....

 We have had some very hot temperatures since Easter.  It was so hot, we were sweating and miserable trying to hide and hunt Easter eggs.  By the time Mother's Day rolled around I knew I could not do another "outside event."  I had made up my mind that, if invited to a cookout, we would have to decline politely and be honest about it, the heat drains me and makes me ill.  Well we did get an invitation and we had in conscious intended on going.  But... as hot days went by, I knew it just couldn't happen.  The inviters were disappointed but I knew my health couldn't handle it.  Oh happy day when the rains came.  It is forecasted for the next week, and we are starting to wonder where it is coming from.  Great blessings from above!  My plants thinks they have died and gone to heaven.

•Now or Never...

It is today.  It is now.  This moment will never come again.  We are told we are but a vapor.  I believe we better get busy.  It is our turn and it is our time in history.  Now let's get out there and make a difference.